CrayZee's Story
Well.......Ive never told my story before, so i guess ill start here. (by the way my names Meaghan and im 13)
well last november i started to date this guy Jacob and we went out for about 2 months. We broke up when we had gotten in a few fights and he got very violent, and one day him and his friend (i think they were high at the time) got into my room and both raped me. There were also a few times when they had slipped stuff in my drink and i passed out and they prolly did it then too.
After we broke up he still wouldnt leave me alone. He threatened me that he would kill me if i didnt take him back,and said he still loved me, but i refused.
A few months after we broke up he got mad because he saw me walkin home with a friend of mine that he told me not to talk to cuz he didnt like her, and the next time he saw me he pushed me down a staircase. I still have the scars on my stomach, shoulders and legs. Then last week, someone slashed his tires at a party so he couldnt leave and stayed there and almost OD-d on somethin...so all his friends were mad at me and Tuesday Mico came and raped me (it lasted about an hour or two) then Wed. Mico Xavier BMan and some other guy came and raped me, then thursday mico and Bman did. I was so upset and hurst that i started to cut myself. I covered up my wrist with ACE WRAP so it looked like i sprained it but then the other day i got called into the office and they checked my wrists and called my parents and now i have to go see the counselor every week. She asked me why i did it and i just kept saying i was bored. Well now Jacob is out of the hospital and i know im gonna get hurt bad but i cant tell on any of them cuz they will have a friend of theirs kill me- seriously. If anyone has any advice or knows what im going through please email me (ajh_chicana@yahoo.com)
Anonymous' Story
My story when I was 13 I was raped by my sister’s boyfriend. It was beautiful summer night. I remember he had called earlier and acted like a real asshole to me so I cursed him out and before the conversation was over he said he was going to get me. Well later that night I was going for my normal midnight walk, I live in a very nice neighborhood which is well lit.
As I was walking to the door I heard a voice and turned around before I could really say anything he had grabbed me and told me that he wanted to feel my coochy I pulled away and told him no, he then pushed down, and I don’t remember him removing my clothes but I was shocked when I realized I was nude from the waste down. And I tried to cover myself. I pleaded with not to do it to me but he would not listen, he forced my legs apart and held my arms above my head. I kept on fighting him but it seemed like the harder I faught the more it hurt, at some point I almost got free and pulled his dick out of me so he tried to go up my ass. After a while I gave up and just started crying I remember thinking to myself I can’t believe this is happening, things like this don’t happen to tough girls like me. When I saw him looking at me I turned away and looked at the sky.
Till this day it is hard for me to look a man in the face when I’m having sex or for some reason feel intimidated by him but I know I am a survivor but until now I have kept this terrible shameful secret. I tried writing my story many times before but I was to chicken to do it. I just want to say that I think all of you ladies are very brave especially those of you who have used your real names or e-mail addresses.
-Anonymous
Sarah's Story
When i was 14 i was raped by my "best friend" who was a girl.This is very hard for me to explain because i was raped by another person of the same sex. I am 16 now and this is very hard for me to relive but i will try because i have to get this out.
When i was in the 8th grade i met a girl named Erica who soon became my very best friend in the whole world... Me and her were truly like sisters. Sometimes i noticed she would look at my ass and make bisexual comments about me but i always thought she was joking. Me and Erica were considered very popular in my junior highschool, i remember, and we usually had a lot of boyfriends..but there was one boyfriend of erica's i remember i did not like.
One evening, it was a Friday night, me, Erica, her boyfriend, and myne had decided to all go to my house. I am an only child and my parents were in Las Vegas during the vacation with some friends and they had left me with a babysitter who was asleep. While we were at my house i remember i had a big basement which was like an apartment in my old house. Well as children do, we decided to play truth or dare. Erica's boyfriend had then dared me to french kiss erica...i was hesitant at first but agreed. After we did this Erica had dared me to take off my shirt (this is when i started getting ideas or her sexuality). Well of course i disagreed and got uncomfortable and left the room. After about 10 minutes i came back in to see what was going on and when i came in i noticed they all stopped talking as if they were telling secrets to each other. I asked them what was going on and Erica's boyfriend had turned off the lights now making it pitch black. I got very scared and quickly reached for the door when i felt someone grab my arm. I don't know who but i was pushed on the bed and someone was taking off my clothes. Whoever it was i kicked them somewhere and now the lights had been tunred on only to find Erica ripping off my clothes. I screamed but of course nobody had heard me.
After about 10 minutes of trying to fight off Erica, her boyfriend, AND MYNE...i had finally given up and just laid there...naked. I felt pressure on my breasts. The boys were squeezing them and erica was choressing my body. Then i had felt pain...a lot of pain from Erica's boyfriend penetrating me (our boyfriends were both 16 at the time). Then my boyfriend had taken his turn and i remember blood everywhere and the pain..like nothing i ever felt before (i was a virgin of course) I yelled "NO" and "STOP" and "PLEASE DON'T" many times but erica had put a pillow over my head suffocating me for a while. Then she took a snapple bottle that was on the floor and tried to penetrate me with it and i remember while she was doing this her boyrfriend was laughing. While all this was happening i remember specific sharp pain to my breasts. Her boyfriend had cut my nipple with a swiss army knife. After a while i blacked out from the pain and woke up in a hospital. Turns my babysitter had heard the commotion and walked in on them. This all went to court and the two boys went to jail. Erica went to jouvenile hall and still isn't allowed to leave the city.
Two years later and I am still having flashbacks. I'll never forget that night. I am scared of almost everyone (females and males) and I can't be touched by anyone anymore. I am going through depression and have theropy. But one thing i know for sure is that IT WAS NOT my fault.
I see Erica almost every day. She does not say a word to me and i don't talk to her. One time we got paired up in science class to do a project and i didnt attend school for 4 weeks. She was soon beaten up by a number of people after everyone found out what she did and she has a head fracture and is now is special ed. and slightly retarted. Her life is ruined as well as myne.
That day still haunts me and i don't know if i will ever get over it. I am getting better now. And one thing i know for sure is trust no1.
-Sarah
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