Emmy's Story
Hi mine name is Emmy is wat happen to me.. ok it was on july 18, 2002..i was 11...almost 12...well i was at my aunts camp sight and was walkin back to the camper from the store when this old guy started to fallow me I say he was in his 20....i thought nuttin of it cuz i new almost every body there....so i kept walkin...well we got almost near king woods which was half way there....and all of a sunded the this guy that was fallowing me came up be hind me and grabed me..pulled me in the woods and told me to shut up...cuz i was screaming...and started to rip my clothes of my body frist he rip open my shirt rip open my bra an threw it on the gorund then pulled my short down then my litte pantie he then he looks at me up and down told me how beauitful i look guess i didn't look like my age then he push me to the ground an started to suck on my breasts kiss me..i had no clue what was going on...then he whiped out his dick and sat on me the he shoved his dick in my mouth and told me to suck on it i had know idea what he was saying an told me to move my toung around it so i started too an it his dick got bigger ewww i thinking to my self that went on for 10mins then he started to kiss me then move down my body an put his head between my legs an i tryed to close them tight he push my legs apart an started to lick me slowly an then little faster i felt something wet go inside my pussy i guess it was his toung he begain to move it in out of me i was crying an moaning why he was doing this to me i stared up in the sky an looking at the trees thinking to myself wat was going on an why me what did i do to him..then out of no where i felt a sharp pain the fucker was fingering me an eatting me out i cryed really load an moan wish made him go fast in n out of me this go on for 15mins then I lean my head back an my body was shaking then i had my frist orgams wish scraed me the death beascue i never flet anything like that before..after i cam he laid on top of me an he start to rub his cock around my pussyy an she shove it inside me i scream loud he begain to move it in out of my slowly then faster i moaning louder wish made him fuck me harder an faster for 20mins he fuck me on my back then he put my legs over his shoulder an push his dick all the way inside me an felt boody runing down my butt he must of poped my cheery..then he flip me over an put me on my hands an knees he put hands on my hips an fuck me that way i tell him it hurt to much but he didn't care so he kept fucking me that way i was moaning an my body started to move with him so i hate to say this but my body was enjoying him fucking me an i was getting so wet an then i came again over an over then he pulled out an came all over my body..i laid there crying look at him when he was getting dress i look over saw this dude was walkin in the woods and saw me him he ran up an started..kicked him grabed me and took me out....thank god he was there but he was to late to stop what happend to me...thanks for listening. Emmy
-Emmy
Jessamy's Story
FROM THE AGES 10-13 I WAS RAPED BY A GUY THAT WAS MEANT TO BE A GOOD FRIEND OF MINE HE WAS ABOUT 16. HE WOULD STALK ME ALL THE TIME I COULDN'T GET AWAY FROM HIM , IT GOT TO THE POINT THAT I WAS TOO SCARED TO EVER LEAVE MY HOUSE BECAUSE EVRYTIME I EVER WENT OUT HE WOULD BE WAITING FOR ME , WAITING FOR THE BEST TIME TO GET ME. IM SORRY BUT I CANT REALLY WRITE MUCH BECAUSE IT HURTS ME SO BADLY TO TALK ABOUT IT , AS IT IS KINDA STILL GOING ON I HAVE GONE TO THE POLICE BUT THEY DONT EVER LISTEN THEY ALWAYS THINK IM LYING AND I JUST WANT ATTENTION. IM TOO SCARED TO TALK TO MY PARENTS ABOUT IT BECAUSE I THINK IT WILL MAKE MATTERS WORSE. I AM ON ZOLOFT AN ANTI-DEPRESSANT TABLET BUT IT DOESNT SEEM TO HELP MUCH I STILL SLIT MY WRISTS AND TRY TO KILL MYSELF IM SO UNHAPPY WITH EVERYTHING AND I ALWAYS THINK THAT IS MY FAULT. I THINK THAT ALL U PPL OUT THERE THAT ARE SURVIVING FROM RAPE OR SEXUAL ABUSE ARE VERY STRONG, I DONT KNOW HOW U HAVE GOTTEN THROUGH ALL THIS, CAUSE IT IS KILLING ME INSIDE SO BADLY, I DONT THINK I CAN TAKE IT MUCH LONGER. THOUGH I AM TRYING CAUSE I DONT WANT HIM TO GET THE SATISFACTION, THE FEELING THAT HE WON. THANK U IF U READ THIS AND HEARD ME OUT IT MEANS ALOT, EVEN IF U DIDNT ITS OK ,IT HELPS ALOT TO EVEN WRITE A LITTLE BIT ABOUT IT TO GET IT OF MY HEAD ONLY FOR A COUPLE OF MINUTES. BYE, I WISH EVERYBODY LUCK ON EVERYTHING!
JeSsAmY
Carrie's Story
It has been one and a half years since I was raped. I have told very few people about the incident. Only my three best friends know what happened. I told a guy who I was seeing, but eventually the rape became too much "responsibility" for him to handle, and we are not together any more. Not even my parents know what happened, and we are a very close family so that is very very difficult for me.
I was on a vacation in another country. I was staying with my friend Isabel and her husband and his family. There was one girl in their family named Julia who was the same age as me (21). She had a boyfriend named Ronal. Everybody loved Ronal a lot. He could drive, he had been in the army, he was an electrical engineer, he was 27. He was engaged to Julia. There was one other 26 year old man in the family named Carlito. Carlito was Julia's brother. Carlito kept trying to kiss me, telling me I was beautiful, buying me things, etc. He was really laying it on thick. One day, we were in the car, and Isabel's husband got mad at Carlito. He told him that I was their guest and Carlito should not make me feel uncomfortable. He made the driver pull over, gave Carlito his bag, and told him to walk the rest of the way home. After that, Isabel and her husband told me that Ronal would take me around as he was the more trustworthy man.
I believed them because I knew them really well, and because they had kicked out one of their relatives because he was being inappropriate.
That night, Isabel, Julia, Ronal and I went out. We went to a bar, and I drank just two beers. I was a little tipsy, but I was not drunk. I remember everything very clearly.
It was the day before I was leaving this particular part of the country, and I had not seen one of the most famous parks they have. It was early, probably around 10:00 PM. The night was young, as they say. Isabel suggested that Ronal take me up to the park. Everyone thought that would be a good idea, and so I said OK.
Ronal and I went to the park alone. He started asking me if I had a boyfriend. I said yes. He said that he was in love with me and started kissing me. I told him "what about Julia" and he said it didn't matter, he saw other girls too. He started pulling my shirt and sucking on my breasts. I remember watching him do that, and thinking "I should say something" but I didn't say anything. I thought maybe if he did that for five minutes he would stop. But then he started rubbing my crotch. He was pushing his hand against me and I started squirming. He straddled my leg and took out his erect penis. He put my hands on it while he grabbed me and held my wrist tightly so that I could not move. He stuck his fingers inside me. It hurt a lot. Suddenly, it was like I woke up and I yanked his penis. I stood up and said "NO." He said "Don't be scared, you'll like it." I said "NO" and started crying. He stopped and looked at me and said "Excuse me."
I knew something was bad about that situation. I knew I didn't want him to touch me. I feel guilty and ashamed that I let him touch me when I didn't want him to. I feel so ashamed that I can't even tell my family what happened. I can't talk to my best friend about what happened except through instant messenger. I feel lucky sometimes that he didn't get my shorts off and only stuck his fingers in me. But how can I be lucky if he did this to me at all? I have never been able to say I WAS RAPED until today. I always called it "what happened." He penetrated me with his fingers, so it was rape. At least if he lived in the state where I live it would be rape. I feel that by saying the word "RAPE" I can now confront better what happened to me. I hope one day I will not feel so ashamed and I will be able to tell my family. I feel like I'm hiding something profound, and no one knows. I am very successful professionally at a very young age so people don't assume that I have a bad secret.
I don't want to be silenced any more. I want you to know what happened so that someone else knows.
-Carrie
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