KT's Story
well i was 11 and my family and my neighbors family where going to the mountains that weekend...well during that weekend...soemthing happened..my bro's friend started to lick me and feel me and rape me...i got scared..really scared..i didnt want to tell anyone..it took me about a year and a half to tell anyone..i told my six grade teacher..adn she helped me very much..well now i am 13..have alot of friends and everyone cares about me..i feel so realived..but at times i get nightmares..adn i dont feel self confident i write poems botu depressiona nd killing myself..now i am getting help from my family,i have a phycoligist...and all my friends try to help me through..i hate goign to skewl..i fail..but i am trying to do my best...well now i am still 13...go to middle school... and try to do my bets..this only happened about 3 years ago....i felt so ashmaed of myself..the thing is the guy he still lives across the street comes over still to see my brother, but i guess i kinda feel ok with him here...he had to go to a bunch of counslers and so much stuff...now he is involved in church..and goes to a privite school..and he said his sorry..i still feel liek when he said sorry..it isnt enough..i want my virginity back....i want my pride back..i want to be me agian..but now i can say i survived and i am proud of it...
-KT
Tyler Thomas's Story
hurt, I hurt everyday the pain at times is unberable.Why do I feel the guilt of some thing I did not ask for nor want .I never asked my Father to touch me.I am 3years old when this started to happen thats the earliest I can remember.Iam lying the be side him we are both naked and I don't know whats going on ,I lay there motionless but it dosen't matter I can feel him rubbing againest me but I cant't move .I can see the whole acctions being played out ,I have left my body now I can see everything as if Iam hovering around the ceiling.I am now back in my body and all I feel yuckyness ,I feel shame and confusion My Father has just molested me for the first time that I can remember.I remember this other time when my father and I are both naked he is chasing me around the house and I am terrified,He finally catches me when I am 3 qarters up are stairwell and all can feel is a hand around my ankle pulling me back down the stair's,To this day I have to be the last one to walk up a flight of stairs.Well thats part of my story .The problem that I now have is controlling the anger and the rage inside me right now .For 32 years this has affected my life and I can honestly say that the abuse is to blame .NO my FATHER is to blame for all the self doubt the atempted suicide.
Iam tired of all the bullshit it has caused me..
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