Niki's Story
Niki's Story
i was fifteen when my encounter happend... i was raped by my step father and his son. when i was younger my step dad and his son would say rude and obsene things to me...onece my step dad held me down on my bed and raped me... clled my 19 year old brother in their and raped me too. my dad told mme stuff like... lets see how you do it! lets see if ur better than your mother... it was hard... i still havent told anyone.
Anonymous's Story
Okay, i dont think iwas raped, but i have a friend who was. SHe told me her story, and wanted the world to know.when she was 12 or so her step dad was the #1 person in her life, and she loved him more than life its self.
As she got older, her boobs got bigger, and she got more and more attractive. By age 14 she had size dd boobs, and was georgos. She had everyones attention.
On December 14 12:00 am, her and her dad were up together, just joking and talking. WHen he started to tickle her. it started at her feet and slowly moved up her legs until he was touching her on her vagina. SHw as confused, and dint know what to think. She just tryed to forget it. Then she fell asleep on the couch. She told me she woke up as her dad was taping her down. He said dont worry we are playin a game. She was scared. Then her dad unzipped his pants, and pulled out his junk.she didnt know what to do. He stuck it in her mouth and made her preform oral sex on him several times. Then when he had ejackulated on her neck, he told her that this was the fun part. Her being a virgin indulged a pain greater than any known to any man. He raped her 8 times in the same night. When she woke up confused and scared, she was no longer bounded by tape, nor was she naked. Her father acted normal as her mother came down the stairs. She looked at her daughted and didnt relize how scared she really was. When my friend finally got out of that house that morning, she went to the store and bought a pregnancy test. she tested positive to 3 tests. She was pregnant with her step fathers baby. She didnt give it up, why i dont know, she didnt beilieve in abortion. She wanted to have it. I tried to tell her it was dumb and she wasnt ready for that kind of dedication. But on january 18 she went to the hospital, and the baby was going to be born.
She died giving birth to his child.
Anonymous
Laura's Story
I don't know if I can do this, it seems so hard to share something so painful, an experience i would rather forget but i feel i need to 'cut the ties that bind'. Here goes.... My name is Laura and i am 21 years old, i am from Ireland and live with my mother and sister. I used to enjoy going out to nightclubs and bars, hanging out with friends really. One night everything changed, my world was turned on it's head. It was January 2001, i was 18 and it was a friends birthday, we all decided to go to a popular club, i was happy, carefree and enjoying the night with my friends, i had a lot to drink which i know i should'nt of but i did'nt know what was about to happen. I was dancing with my best mate and this guy came over and we started to dance with eachother, he seemed really nice. He kissed me and i let him, i kissed him back. When the song was over he took my hand and brought me to the back booth in the club, i did'nt think anything of it, i feel so stupid now when i think back, anyway we sat down and he kissed me again, i kissed him too it was okay i did'nt mind until he put his hand under my skirt and started touching me, i asked him to stop and tried to pull his hand away, i could'nt and he kept kissing me, he leaned on me and i fell back on the couch. I asked him to stop and said no but he just looked at me, i could'nt believe what was happening. He put one hand over my mouth and his other hand was inside me and i kept screaming, i could'nt make him stop, i tried and the only thing i could think to do was to bite his hand, i did'nt mean to make him angry or to hurt him, i thought if he knew how much i wanted him to stop that he would, but he just got very angry and he shouted at me, hit me with the back of his hand, opened his jeans and pushed inside me, over and over again. I was in shock, it was'nt happening, i kept telling myself that.I was saying 'no'and trying to push him off me but he was too heavy, i could'nt fight him, it hurt so much, emotionally as well as physically. I wish now that i fought harder, did something to make it stop, i hate myself for letting him hurt me like that. It happened almost three years ago and i still have nightmares, i can still smell, hear and see him, i just want to make it go away. I have only told my therapist, my friends and family do not know, I don't want to be known as a rape 'victim'. I was a virgin, he was my first and since my rape i have'nt let another man near me, i am too anxious when i am alone with men. I do not go out much these days and am uncomfortable in crowds. I hate with that man made me, i was confident, happy and fun-loving now i am the opposite he took that away from me. I am trying to talk during counselling but find it hard to express myself, i have an eating disorder and i self harm, i HATE what me made me become and i hate ME for letting him make me this way. Anyway i thank you for being me listeners it is the first time i have spoken about that night, and i feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest, thank you.
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